I am both simultaneously jealous and in love with one of my close friends.

2021.12.07 16:30 daveydave1987 I am both simultaneously jealous and in love with one of my close friends.

I recently made a friend this semester in school and we’ve gotten really really close. We were both in the same organization through school and started hanging out because they are demi-girl/afab non-binary and I am a trans woman. They are incredibly pretty, so I have forever had a crush, but I never wanted to act on it to preserve the friendship.
Recently, they brought up how it made them uncomfortable that I sometimes tease them for their very nice, expensive clothing. This brought up a character flaw in myself that I really want to analyze. Especially as a transwoman, only 7 months on hrt, I often compare myself to cis-women or incredibly pretty femme presenting individuals. I get so jealous of their nice clothing, effortless beauty, and warm/gentle personality that is sometimes scares me. I spend so much time in my life to purge all of the masculine traits of myself that I hated, but it seems to never be enough when compared to these individuals. Next to them, I feel boyish, big, and gross, even though I have come so far in my transition. So with this friend, who is incredibly beautiful, I often get jealous and dysphoric, but on top of that I am in love with them and want to be around them as much as possible.
I guess I just don’t know what to do. I have made up with this friend about my teasing, but the jealousy and feelings of love still remain. If anyone has a similar experience or words of wisdom for this situation, it would be greatly appreciated.
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2021.12.07 16:30 Hutspower I also posted this in r/memes, so don’t think it’s a repost

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2021.12.07 16:30 danthoms I just bought these old animatronic animals in an auction

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2021.12.07 16:30 stripy_tiger [LF] cataloguing antique furniture set [FT] bells

Does anyone have a complete antique furniture set I can catalogue? Can pay in bells or some NMT!
TIA!
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2021.12.07 16:30 Bellringer00 ESA is the European Space Agency not Emotional Support Animals

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2021.12.07 16:30 Jason_Wolfe Anyone happen to know if this is an outfit we can get? It looks like ALC gear, but im hoping it isn't.

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2021.12.07 16:30 BluntFrank00 Who are you?

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2021.12.07 16:30 spoonwije97 One day a woman was checking her husband's phone.

One day a woman was checking her husband's phone.
There were three contacts of ladies saved in it called, The Lady that is tender, The lady that is Amazing, and the lady of my dreams.
The wife called the lady that is tender and her husband's mother answered.
Then she called the lady that is amazing, then her sister answered,
Then she called the lady of his dreams. Then her phone rang.
The wife had tears in her eyes and she gave her husband the biggest hug a woman has ever given to a man.
Then "Best sex in my life" called him.
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2021.12.07 16:30 jawbreezee A cute little Gem of a house I found for sale

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2021.12.07 16:30 Tuna_gang Need 5 for reshiram rn

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2021.12.07 16:30 SuperPresentation9 The idea of getting back with my ex still crosses my mind and I’m still hopeful

My (m24) now ex girlfriend (f23) dumped me a week ago after an incredible 18 month relationship which really hit hard because it was so sudden and out of nowhere and I’ve been struggling to say the least.
Overall, the relationship was pretty much perfect and things were normal right until the end so it was a huge shock when it all happened. Basically she felt she was not as emotionally invested and in love as I was and didn’t really see a long-term thing, although with that said it didn’t end too ugly.
A few days after the initial break up, I messaged her asking if we could meet up and chat so I could get more closure and honestly, hopefully get back together as we didn’t have a toxic relationship and the issues are worth at least trying to work through in my opinion.
Unfortunately after meeting up for a further chat a few days ago, she still did not want to get back together and was stood by her original decision and now it feels well and truly over but I can’t help but feel hopeful on getting back together as it was truly an amazing relationship right until the end.
Another crazy thing is that we were literally away with her parents for a few days only a week prior to the breakup, which is another reason why it was such a shock.
We really didn’t end on bad terms and I know it was tough for her, but I still feel there’s potentially a chance. Any advice on what I should do moving forward would be great
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2021.12.07 16:30 johnrock001 Best Anime Cat Girl Of All Time - Anime Cat Girl List

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2021.12.07 16:30 Ackpokeypoke_scott HAPPY 3 YEARS OF MY FAVORITE GAME OF ALL TIME COMING OUT!!!!!!

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2021.12.07 16:30 KasaneTeto_ How do you stay safe on the internet, r/linuxmasterrace? What browser extensions do you use to block the glowies?

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2021.12.07 16:30 zNugss_ W

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2021.12.07 16:30 ElijahFlabberghast The Red Wire - Battlefield 3

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2021.12.07 16:30 armreader US defense spending bill points to four specific Azerbaijani transgressions

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2021.12.07 16:30 Woollums Finding duplicate entries based on 2 variables

So I have a table of data. A list of appointments. I need to find if anyone has two appointments on the same day. I ideally like an output of a list of people the meet this qualification.
Each appointment is a row with Name and Date as columns.
Is there a quick way to do that in excel? I thought there would be a quick way to check in a pivot table but that was giving me fits.
Any thoughts?
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2021.12.07 16:30 Neroidius Remember the Alamo?

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2021.12.07 16:30 KEWLENDERMAN69 Tech element momento

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2021.12.07 16:30 Grandmiffedtarkin Accurate Enlisted/Commission Relationships in Movies?

Question in title. I'm tired of movies depicting military officers as ignorant dictators and enlisted as hopelessly unable to think for themselves. The only films that I assume are somewhat accurate are Hunt for Red October (1990) and Master and Commander (2003). Any others that show the mutual respect that I sometimes hear about but never see? I'm just a lowly civilian here, asking out of dumb curiosity.
Unrelated question, how do I make OTS recruiters return my calls and emails? I have an almost-done application that was pushed back from April to September, but they haven't been responding to my requests to finish my packet. Getting frustrated enough to just let it go and apply for Reserves near my area when they happen.
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2021.12.07 16:30 13points35seconds S.H. Figuarts Star Wars Visions exclusive to Target coming soon

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2021.12.07 16:30 AFamiliarFace1337 Family of 5 homeless...Update Thread

Hello all, you have all shown great kindness in the previous posts (context can be found by viewing my post history if this is new to you).
I am going to be honest, I am really struggling to keep it all together. I truly am. Normally, I am fairly optimistic and joyful, even despite horrendous situations, but I simply cannot hold that facade much longer.
I have, to the best of my abilities, tried to implement all your wonderful suggestions. Here is a list of the things I have attempted to do this far:
1.) By far, the biggest suggestion was "get a job," which I am attempting to do. I have easily filed over 120 applications via Indeed. However, I do not have an ID. And most jobs require an ID. So, get an ID, you say? Okay, fun fact: I don't even have my birth certificate, social security card, or proof of residence (my family is homeless and has no permanent address to prove residence) to get an ID. I at least tried to ship out a new birth certificate and social security card, but those could be weeks before I get them. And again, we don't have a permanent address for mailing. We have a P.O. box and a lot of our mail has issues even getting there. So, it's not even guaranteed that I get my important documents. I am genuinely lost on this situation. Not to mention that I don't have transportation or a driver's license, so that eliminates a lot of opportunity. The best I could hope for is walking through the blistering Michigan winters back and forth dozens of miles every day. Which, I will do if it can help my family. My father is also attempting to get a job as well, but I will explain further down the post our situation that makes it harder for my father to work.
2.) Several housing authorities/programs were listed, but I am not sure they will take us due to us either being outside of the community they serve or just due to their long waiting lists. I contacted a lot and they confirmed my suspicions.
3.) Continued, dedicated research into all the available resources, job opportunities, housing, and areas of high opportunity.
4.) Attempting to hold my mental health together and trying to make sure my family is able to hold it together too. It is absolutely heartbreaking seeing my little sisters so miserable. I see them cry practically everyday. Everyday I worry if something horrible will happen to us all and we will somehow hit a new low. Despite this, I try to persevere and assist my family however I may.
5.) Whatever little time I have left after the above tasks is dedicated to trying to hone skills that can hopefully be used in employment to provide for my family. For instance, I taught myself how to program in various programming languages and I am extremely savvy with a computer or technology in general.
Now, in my previous posts I mentioned that my family of 5 (my father, my mother, my two sisters (ages 10 and 14), and I (age 18) are homeless. We had assistance from Community Action Agency (CAA) in the form of paying for a motel for us to stay out of the elements until we can find a house that they can pay for up to 9 months of rent. This was a very generous offer, but in my previous posts, I talked about our down-right horrible rent/credit history. My parents have at least 4 evictions and no income. We were attempting to resolve the no income part by trying to find employment at least because absolutely no one in our area will rent to people with bad history like us.
But CAA did not tell us there was a limit on how long they can pay for the motel, to keep us out of the elements. A limit is fair, absolutely, but, they did not tell us there was one in advance and we have found out the hard way by the limit running out and we are now back in our barely functional RV in the harsh Michigan winter.
I just am at a loss as to what to do at this point. No matter what we attempt to do, there is always something there to mess us up and make us start over at square one. This vicious cycle has lasted years. I want to see my family be able to smile for one day, at the least.
My younger sisters most certainly have years of unhealthy trauma built up over their developing years that I don't know if they will last much longer. Not to mention my parents are frequently in deep depression and I never know if I will wake up one day and one of us have killed themselves.
I just don't know how we can reasonably get a job if we don't have a solid, strong, and stable foundation to work off of? If my dad works (he is the only one that can drive), then that would leave my family in the RV by themselves in a Walmart parking lot. Any person could just walk up in the night and just murder them while they sleep. Or alternatively, the owner of whatever parking lot could get disgusted with our presence and knock on our door to move the RV elsewhere. But my dad would be working, so the owners would most certainly tow our only form of shelter, at our expense, which we certainly cannot afford. If my mom works, my father won't have anyone to look over him and make sure he doesn't do anything really bad (he has numerous mental health and intellectual disabilities). That leaves me to work, which I absolutely will and want to do, but I cannot produce the proper paperwork to work at legal (not under the table) employers, among the numerous other issues.
I am just...at a loss as what to do. It has been frequently suggested that I just leave my family, but I just can't in good conscience. My family, simply, put is incapable of self-sufficiency and require constant supervision and assistance to survive in this world, or they surely would all die. I cannot live with myself if that happens. I can't.
And I just can't understand why people look down on people like my parents so badly, or homeless/impoverished people so badly. It really is frustrating and depressing when people constantly look at you like you are worthless, lazy, good for nothing deadbeats that deserve everything bad that happens to you. People that have fortune often look down at us in disgust and it is saddening. Not everyone within a society is mentally, physically, intellectually, or financially capable of contributing to society in significant ways or are capable of being self-sufficient themselves. And people like that are expected to die somewhere on the street as people look away in disgust or because they don't want to feel bad. I know my parents have made many, many, many bad decisions, and honestly, they probably will continue to. Their brains simply aren't compatible with how our world is structured. I just wish that everyone, no matter your shortcomings, no matter your flaws, or inability was given, no, I'd go as far as to say guaranteed a baseline of security and stability. I do not ask for a mansion, or a Lamborghini, but dang, even having a one bedroom slum would be nice. It would be very, very helpful at the least.
I am just so exhausted. I honestly am. I am at a loss as to what to do, our future looks incredibly bleak, and I just don't know how much longer we will live. If we don't die from one of the various bad things that frequently happen to us, then depression will surely kill us all.
I know this post is much darker than what I normally would do, but I am extremely desperate for anything to help. Be it magical words of advice that vastly change our worldviews or be it a magical house falls from the sky. This is honestly a plea for help. I just want to cry, scream, collapse at this point.
I do not ask for money, but I do ask for your understanding and compassion in our dark, dark, dark times. Moderators, I kindly ask you too to leave this up. Please, any possible light on our situation gives us the tiniest bit of a chance out.
I will try my best to keep everyone updated within this thread instead of making a new post for every update. So, do feel free to check in every now and then. Thank you all once again.
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2021.12.07 16:30 MickSwagger07 Does Advance increase durability because how can Ohma take so many blows from Raian Removal Who is equal to Wakastuki with Strength

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